COOL, FRESH, JUICY, deliciously sweet. I was instantly addicted
when a neighbor in Spain introduced me to my favorite dish in the worldthe fruit of
the prickly pear cactus.
After rolling the fruit carefully across the driveway and spraying
it with water to completely remove the spines, we peeled the thick green skin away with a
knife and the fruit dissolved in my mouth. It reminded me of the refreshing Mediterranean
breezes that sighed inland on hot afternoons.
"¿Qué te parece?" he asked me. How do you like it?
"!Me encanta!" I replied. I love it!
The fruit was filled with small round seeds, and the flesh fell
easily away from these. Ive never forgotten the taste.
I saw the fruit again on a trip through Mexico last
summerripe purple fruit atop tall fan-shaped cactus. It stood silhouetted against
the distant sky, growing from a narrow rocky ridge that quickly turned to cliff and
dropped dramatically into the green valley below.
Ben and I were flying along steep, twisty mountain roads at the
time. We had already driven across over 150 miles of such switchbacks that day and had
another 200 miles to go before we would reach the coast and smooth, straight highways
again.
Heavy rain showers doused our car off and on the whole way through
the mountains. Even with the wipers on high, I could sometimes make out no details of the
road or surrounding lush vegetation. Only the gray of the road, the green of the plants,
and the black of the midday sky.
By the time I realized just how good that fruit would have tasted
and what I had missed out on, we had already reached the next tight curve. I downshifted
to second to save the brakes, watching the road ahead for oncoming traffic that could
appear at any second. I swore right then and there that I would stop at the next ripe
cactus and pick its fruit.
I havent seen one since.
We passed many more prickly pears along our way to the coast, but
all the fruits were still green. They would be hard and sour. I wish now that Id
have hit the brakes, turned around, and hiked out along that thin ridge. I wish Id
not have passed by in such a hurry. This moment still stands out as my one regret of my
Mexico vacation.
Prickly pear fruit ranks in my mind and heart with many other
things that you work for and then enjoy their satisfactions and rewards. Things that you
dream about. Things that you remember with joy, long for with regret, or both
simultaneously.
You know their taste to be delicious and wonderful, succulent and
satisfying, but you sometimes remember them as bittersweet just the same.
Sometimes I think of the fruit when I think of dreams, goals,
ambitions, and hopes, opportunities taken or opportunities that passed me by.
Sometimes I remember the refreshing taste alongside memories of
specific placesa boulder alongside a frothy mountain stream, waves covering my
ankles on a secluded beach, a shaded bench in the park, a quiet corner of the library, or
the bedroom in my childhood home.
All these memories send waves of feelings coursing through me,
soaking me with memories, drenching me with emotions, leaving me to stand there dripping,
energized or drained.
Sometimes the fruit reminds me of someone equally refreshing.
Someone like Amy. I remember the first time I really talked with her.
"You look restless," I told her. We had run a few miles
together and sat, cooling down and stretching, on the cool cement curb near my home.
She looked up, surprised. "I thought I hid it better,"
she answered. But there was no hiding the flash of passion in her eyes, the hunger for a
bigger slice of life, the desire to soak in even more beauty from the surrounding world.
That small taste of the energy of her inner world whet my appetite
for another bite. I could never get enough.
We spent some time together over the following months, climbing
small mountains to watch the sunset, running through town or up the canyon after dark,
sometimes laying in the grass at night and sharing our thoughts while we watched the stars
spin slowly through the summer sky.
Amy later moved, first to the next town, then home to an adjacent
state, and finally to the other side of the country. Now I havent seen her in years.
From a distance, I saw someone who looked like her this past week
and did a double take. I remembered the flavor she brought and how my little world tasted
so sweet for a few short moments.
I dont know when Ill next find someone like Amy,
someone like the deliciously sweet flesh of prickly pear cactus fruit. Ive promised
myself to stop and turn around next time I do.