I
create my own crises for good reason. Think about it for a minute, and I bet youll
decide to do the same.My feet pound along the gravel trail
2½ miles up the canyon. The sun beats down hot, my legs feel heavy and lethargic, lungs
ache ever so slightly with each breath, and sweat is running down my bare arms and chest.
This slight discomfort serves as todays crisis.
The key, the point of creating todays crisis along this
trail, is to ignore the discomfort and focus on the positive, which is not difficult. When
the trail runs near the river, Im taken by its power and beauty. The last few days
have been warm and the river is high and fierce with snowmelt. I stare at the frothy
rapids and dont worry about tripping on the smooth trail.
The warm breeze feels cool against my damp body. It seems spring
has finally settled in and all the leaves have spread out in the last two weeks, leaving
the lower canyon a glowing green that cant help but brighten your day, not to
mention providing a good amount of refreshing shade along the trail.
Deep inside, I feel traces and remnants of stress left over from
extended periods of spreading myself too thin. This practice of looking beyond negative
feelings and focussing on the positive makes any stress shrivel and fade. It keeps any
anxieties evaporating from pores and blowing away in the warm breeze.
Heres how it works: Whatever you focus on grows. Running in
the canyon, its easy to focus on the positive, the peaceful, the beautiful.
Its easy to sense all that growing inside, natures tendrils wrapping around my
heart and mind.
At the three-mile point, a shady bench convinces me to stop and
stretch. Sitting in the shade, I notice four distinct bird songs splashing through the
thick green canopy above, falling around me like the light and shadow dancing on my arms
and legs.
Afterward the stretch, I stand and start up the trail again. This
time the heaviness is gone from my legs and I cant help but run along at 13 miles
per hour. I wont keep this up for over half a mile, but for the moment, it feels
good.
I like this freedom to choose my own crises. This way I get the
ones I like, ones I know I can handle successfully. This way I know I can build myself up
without first tearing myself down.
So many people live out their lives with the same habits and ruts
until they are faced with the necessity of reevaluation and change. Until cancer or fatal
accidents or lay offs or break ups knock the world out from under their feet. Until real
crises stretch them to their limits and beyond, when they are not prepared.
Many people, when put to the test, snap. They become overwhelmed
and spend months or years or decades recovering from the trauma, seeking to restore a
sense of order and control over their lives.
Others find such epic trials liberating. They rise to the occasion
and discover themselves capable of far more than they ever dreamed possible. As the crisis
subsides, these people lead happier, more productive and balanced lives. They live to
bless their heart attacks and bankruptcies, thanking divine providence for valuable
lessons and powerful opportunities for growth.
Im doing everything I know how to avoid the big ones.
Lifes tricky enough without incurring real difficulties. Im trying to build a
savings account. I watch my diet a little and exercise a lot. I look both ways before
crossing the street. But even though I dont expect any major crises to come my way
anytime soon, Im unwilling to sit and wait, leaving all growth and preparation to
chance.
I find what growth I can by reaching past small difficulties and
trials, petty annoyances and discomforts. And I find myself refreshed and happy after each
exercise of will, attitude and determination.
Ive covered seven miles of trail and have nearly reached my
parked car. I stop to walk the last hundred yards, to let my muscles cool down, take in
the scenery, and enjoy this perfect summer day. The mini-crisis is over except for the hot
breeze and sun that bake my scorching skin.
I stop on the last bridge to stretch out again, but a better idea
comes to mind. I climb over the bridges railing and look down ten feet to where the
river slows behind a short dam. Just the thought of what I am about to do is enough to
tighten the muscles around my chest and turn each breath shallow.
So I stop thinking and peel my fingers away from the railing. The
fall through air is brief and the fridgid water swallows me whole. Invisible currents tug
at my limbs as I push off the bottom and claw my way frantically toward the shore.
My fingers nearly feel numb as I climb the rock wall out of the
river, but if you stopped and asked, Id invite you in and tell you "The
waters fine!"